I'm just feeling forlorn this day. Seeing our daughter was inexplicably beautiful,
an experience I could do no justice with my limited grasp of writing. So I won't even diminish it by trying.
What's in my heart is like fireflies in a jar. I want to share them sometimes but if I open the lid, I just know the light will fly off.....
A door was opened in our hearts and now we just stand on the porch, not really knowing if we should walk in or if we are meant to stand there patiently waiting for the beckon in.....
We will wait forever, if need be. And stand ready to be whatever is needed or wanted, whenever and however it is wanted.
Until then we'll keep doin life.
And I'll keep pickin up a few little things here and there.....
though to be honest with you, I'm gettin bored of it.
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And while I'm bein so open with everything,
can I just admit that I am really sad that my happy corn guy is washin off?
A sweet gal at Chikfila painted it on my arm and it was the highlight of my day.
Well, I guess the moral of this post is that all good things come to an end.
And corn doesn't last forever.
Laura, when you're feeling forlorn, it's easy to feel bored with the stuff you usually take joy from too. And sometimes feeling bored with something is a sign that it's no longer going to be what gets you out of the funk. Maybe you take a break from it for a while. Put some distance between yourself and the "hunt" for the next thing. I've been feeling that lately. I think maybe its just a way for people to grant themselves permission to try to find that next passion... take a break... and come back to the other stuff when it seems fresh again.
ReplyDeleteOr maybe that's not it at all. I don't pretend to actually KNOW this stuff. I'm a paragraph you're reading on the internet. Hang in there though, forlorn is no fun no matter what, but there's always light coming. Always.
No, Geek. You're right. I felt just like it was time to move on today and I actually gave away a whole load yesterday.... this stuff, it's gettin too heavy. And it's chippin away nickel by nickel at things that I would rather do.
DeleteThank you for what you said. And you're more than just a paragraph flanked by the Labrynth King. I'm already referring to your wife as "Jen" and talk like we are buddies. Did you tell her we're friends, by the way? ;)
Oh yeah! She knows you from FB and when you were reconnecting with your daughter I filled her in on all the details.
DeleteSo we're like first cousins who grew up together and are inseparable then...... thanks :)
DeleteIt's circle Laura, Sure the good must come to a end but you will eventually run into it again once you travel the full length around that circle.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes it's not all roses and sunshine on the journey but there will always be some brighter spots before you find that happy place again. : )
It really is a circle, John. I'm just kinda roundin a slow, sad corner right now. But I do keep a firm grasp on all that I have in this family, a great treasure!
DeleteThanks, John. Take care!
I hear ya Sister, I haven't really been into hunting through my local DI lately. I had to spend hours raking leaves today under the giant tree in our back yard. :/ But it was a blast because my wife and lil girl were right there beside me, then my Laura decided to spell something with the leaves, so we spelled "LOVE" and it was huge! Like 30 feet long huge! We took pictures of course. Best day ever!
ReplyDeleteYou keep lovin' that cute little family of yours! They're the greatest treasure of all and they do last forever, they're eternal! :)
And I hate to even go there, but corn does last forever. I won't go into details...
God bless you Laura! :)
This was such a beautiful statement, Mason.....
Deleteand then you ended it with a subtle yet horrible imagery....
but then you said God bless and redeemed yourself!
Thank you for brightening up everything with that!
Awesome, brother ;)
Heh heh, yeah, sorry about the corn thing, I just couldn't help myself! I think the Hess' films are rubbing off on me a little. XD
Deletei think all collectors go through the phases of hunting and purging. i have been going through it this year. so much stuff just piling up and it isn't as exciting to find something when you've got a mountain of stuff at home. now i pick up a few things here or there, things i really, or things we could actually use (i finally found a pressure cooker! not cute or photoworthy, but great for my bean cooking! ha!)
ReplyDeletehope you can get out of the funk soon. i've been there, oh geeeeeze i've been there.
I notice that your blog has become centered around the amazing experiences, travels and time spent with friends the latter portion of this year. Awesome and inspiring!
DeleteAnd I totally get that pressure statement!!! I bought some old cookware from Hennekee (MISS HIM!!) and every time I cook I think "this is the best purchase I ever made".....
Keep it classy, Rae ;) Christmas is coming.... yay!
Since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of heaven, where Christ sits in the place of honor at God's right hand. Think about the things of heaven, not the things of earth. (Col 3:1-2) I hear you sister, and I feel what you are going through, but we have God to thank because we know that that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them (Romans 8:28). And dear sister I know you love God and that you are operating within your purpose. I love you and your family dearly :)
ReplyDeleteBest and sweetest comment, Coley :)
DeleteI love you and I just got your bday card..... who does that?! I showed my friend who was over and she got pheklempt..... like a teeny, misty tear at the corner of her eye!
You keep blessing me, and surprising me and I'm used to being the one on the other end of this dynamic. I love you and thank you for letting me experience this side of the coin. I feel so loved and valued by you, but you don't have to do anything else for me ever again and I will know it!
amen
DeleteA couple things: I love that thermos...mostly because I have the exact same one. THERMOS TWINKIES! I always go through seasons where I loathe thrifting because I can't find anything, then i will go through a huge treasure hunt day and its like I fall in love all over again. It's crazy! Also, when I saw that fading corny fella...all I could hear in my head was that whole end of The Oustiders, "Nothing gold can stay. Stay gold, Pony Boy. Stay Gold." I think that reference works in this situation, right?
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I hope you don't get too sick of Tshcotkes because Christmas is around the corner, and I got some stuff for you and your cutesy family.
Okay, you're actually part of a set of triplets.... here's proof ...http://boobobby.blogspot.com/2013/02/wanna-catch-up.html
DeleteAll the reasons I love you could be summed up in what just happened. You quoted The Outsiders and referenced Pony Boy to tie into a piece of fading corn on my arm.
And I just googled "Tschotkes" and I am in no way enlightened as to what it is!!! The most random images, but all were pretty great.... can't wait!
Tschotkes are like knick knacks with no real utility
DeleteYOU KNOCKED!
ReplyDelete"Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you" (Matt.7:7)