So, I haven't got a clear topic in mind.... layin in bed, husband's sleepin through Castaway again (he puts it in every time he needs a sleep aid, I guess)...... CPS removed the kids from my home today under BOGUS claims from their mother, who naturally put it all on her 13 year old. Really don't know which to believe and frankly, does it even matter?......Bitter much? Nah. A littled jaded and walled off maybe...... But most overwhelmingly heartbroken.
For a brief moment they were children. Nothin more than children.... We didn't need anything from them, not acceptance, not reassurance, not to make money for us, not to make us feel better, not to lie for us, cover for us, work for us, be a meal ticket for us, steal for us or assuage our loneliness.
They just got to be kids.
They are gone tonight and I can do nothing for them. I lay them in your hands, God, for you love them fiercely, more than I could ever dream to. And in Your hands they are safe, for I have asked you in Your name and according to Your will.
So please remind my heart to stop crying, would ya?
I trust you, God.